GREG James’ wife Bella Mackie has revealed she had a heartbreaking miscarriage that triggered her mental health to “plummet”.
The 35-year-old – who suffers with anxiety and OCD – has opened up about feeling “terrified” over trying for another baby.
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In a personal essay for The Times, Bella said after falling pregnant last year she suffered a setback with her mental health when she lost the baby.
“It was a surprise and only lasted for about three weeks; it could barely be called a miscarriage,” wrote Bella.
“But even in that brief window my mental health plummeted dramatically.
“I started having constant intrusive thoughts, my OCD roared back and I couldn’t stop crying. The intensity and speed of my deterioration shocked me. And my poor husband.”
Bella married Radio One Breakfast presenter in September 2018 after she popped the question.
Greg described their wedding day as “the most incredible day of my life”.
Ever since her miscarriage, Bella has wondered whether she is willing to risk her mental health to have a baby.
She said: “When I was no longer pregnant, when it was all over and my mood started to creep back up to an acceptable level, the baby thought was no longer warm and fuzzy. It was terrifying.”
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Bella added: “The baby thought remains vague. I am still terrified of the possibility that I might slide back down the treacherous slope and end up losing my independence, or being resentful about what I’ve lost.
“I will keep mulling it over and think about what positive safeguards I can put in place if I do decide to have a baby.
“For now, at least, my life — the one I’ve worked so hard to make happy — is enough for me.”