CELEBRITY SAS viewers were in tears tonight as Joey Essex revealed his mum’s suicide has left him with trust issues.
The reality TV star was just ten years old when his mother killed herself after suffering from mental health problems.
Joey, 29, was pulled in for an interrogation after clashing with Paralympian Lauren Steadman.
Opening up about his tragic childhood, Joey told the directing staff: “I like Lauren but I think she’s in competition with me.
“I’m a lot more clever than people think. They don’t want to believe that.
“I’m here to find out how tough I really am. I believe I’m quite tough inside because growing up wasn’t easy.
“I had to deal with a lot of s***. My mum committed suicide when I was ten which was quite difficult.
“That hardened me up a bit. It made me tougher inside.
“I know it’s stupid, but I’ve just been able to start opening up about it and saying the word mum about three or four years ago.
“I always ask why she would do that, because I know she loved me.”
He added: “I’ve got a big trust issue. One day she was there and one day she was gone. It’s like why?”
Fans were left in tears as Joey broke down over his mum’s death.
One said: “Massive respect for joey after that. wow. literally in tears. 100% my winner! #SASWhoDaresWins
Another added: “When @JoeyEssex_ brings you to tears, huge respect. #SASWhoDaresWins.”
Someone else said: “@JoeyEssex_ has had me in tears, how heart breaking, your mom would be so proud #SASWhoDaresWins.”
A fan added: “SAS was so good tonight! @JoeyEssex_ had me in tears, routing for him to win this #SASWhoDaresWins.”
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Another said: “Joey opening up about his mother’s suicide on #SASWhoDaresWins has me in tears. So gut wrenching to watch the pain inside him, that he will never get over. Please, anyone reading this, always know there is another way. You are so needed here on earth, I am here.”
Joey cried as he told his story to the camera. He added: “I didn’t understand. I remember saying ‘she can’t be gone, she’ll come back because why would she leave me?’”
Despite Ant Middleton being set on sending both Lauren and Joey home, both contestants narrowly kept their place in the competition.
Meanwhile ex-footballer John Fashanu and Radio 1Xtra presenter Yasmin Evans were told to leave camp.